Thinking about thinking

Have you ever been caught in that endless loop of a song going round and round in your head? You know what I mean, right? You hear maybe a single word and then it sets off a song in your head that sticks with you for what seems like hours on end… That happens to me far more than I like to admit. In fact, I was asleep the other night and in a dream the Boston song “More Than A Feeling” was going round and round in a loop. In. My. Dream! My wife calls it an “ear worm.”...

Traveling the Path to Peace

Widowhood. Death. Yesterday, my new partner’s best friend lost her son to an overdose. It was a shocking reminder about how fragile existence is in this realm. We all know what it means. We have all looked death in the face. We have lost our person, our spouse or partner. And we came face to face in that moment with the realization that we ourselves are mortal. And the time of dying will come for us soon enough. Most people I know see life itself as some sort of metaphorical “journey”. After all, we exist in a time in space...

Growth to Gain

“From Grieving to Greatness” is what I am actually calling it. Basically, I now look in the mirror and I am not the same man I was two and a half years ago. I have evolved. Please don’t get me wrong, I am most definitely still grieving Suzanne and always will. But now I am different. My role is to continue to grow and to continue to serve the community that I am part of. My growth is your gain. My Adventure Over these last two and a half years, I have grown. It was not a conscious choice in...

Resilience Part 1 (How to Strengthen Yours)

I have been doing a lot of work on resilience lately. We have all been told that the concept of resilience refers to one’s ability to “bounce back” from adversity. Being resilient helps us to recover from setbacks relatively comfortably. It also allows us the grace to move forward through difficult situations in life. While resilience comes naturally to some, anybody can train himself to become more resilient. Like any skill, resilience can be built with time and practice so that you can feel confident in your ability to face adversity and come through it. This first instalment forms part...

Asking For Help

Ever see a movie when the family are driving in the car and they’re lost? The dad is driving, wife in the passenger seat, kids in the back? Stress is rising, kids are hungry and bored, wife is asking the husband to stop and ask directions… But he won’t. He doesn’t stop. Dad just keeps driving—maybe even in circles—because he’s too proud, too “stuck” in his own ego, to stop and ask for help. Thing is, I asked a lot of people what they would tell themselves if they could go back to those early days of widowhood. Guess what…?...

Dogs and love

A dog is the only thing on earth that loves you more than you love yourself…Anonymous In the year after our twin daughters were born, we got a golden retriever puppy we named Charlie. Everyone always says they have, “the best dog ever,” but Charlie truly was. When the girls were young, they could pull on his ears, his tail, his fur, just about any part of him and he would never so much as complain, growl or groan.  Charlie became a fixture of our lives. He was part time babysitter, part time guard dog, part time walking buddy, part time...

Purpose

What is my purpose? Why am I here? How do I help others? What can I do to make this world a better place? These questions have been rattling around in my head more than ever over the last two years. I started to ask them when I was a child; but they became louder and resonated more inside my head in the weeks and months before Suzanne died in 2018. Somehow, I found an answer to most of these questions. It took a lot of hard work, a deep dive from my head into my heart, and plenty of...

Leading From the Heart

A while ago, I was totally living in my head. Like all the time. My ego was out of control. I was overthinking and overwhelmed. Then something shifted. It wasn’t immediate, but it wasn’t subtle either. In a matter of days, maybe even a few hours, I took a deep dive from my head to my heart. Once I got there, and saw what an amazingly beautiful place it was, I decided to stay there. In so many ways, this was simply living the way that Suzanne had always lived her life, but I never realized how it worked. Unlike...

Tears

This is version two of this week’s blog post. Normally, I would have published it by now, but wasn’t happy with the way my earlier one came out. Then I saw a vignette on a friend’s Facebook page and it made me think about some things I had not thought about for a while.  The post I read was written from a woman’s perspective. It was about her thankfulness for the man in her life who she believed God had put there to wipe away all her earthly tears.  It made me think of the time before Suzanne died, as...

A Rite of Passage

One of the first big milestones of life without Suzanne has come to pass. Our youngest daughter has finished college and has basically graduated (she has fulfilled all of her requirements, but because of CoVID-19 the ceremony will now not take place until December). She arrives back at my home from England today after finishing last month. Last night, I sat in the kitchen with my new partner, Kristi, and we created a couple of posters for Emily. We created one that simply said congrats and another with inspirational messages and quotes on. When searching for what to write for...